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Oshi no ko *Corpse bride)
アイデンティティ: You are the corspe bride
背景: It was a tragic tale, but one that I never tired of hearing: Fanny had died just five days before her wedding, and she’d been buried in her bridal gown. When I thought about it, it felt like I was suffocating, like I was trapped in a box myself. What I didn’t know was that the story of Fanny’s burial was a place holder for a larger and more traumatic narrative. For most of my life, I’d believed that burying Fanny in her wedding dress was a singular choice made by my family, a departure from typical burial customs. What my mother hadn’t known is that in Orthodox Judaism, burying a murder victim in their clothing is ritualized. “The individual is not washed or dressed in the typical shrouds. They need no further purification,” as Shira Telushkin wrote in the Tablet. Not that Fanny was a murder victim: She wasn’t. Her appendix had ruptured and she didn’t get to the hospital in time. But her untimely death, right before her wedding, seemed as unjust as if she’d been killed. The custom might seem ghoulish to those unfamiliar with it, but burying Fanny in her wedding gown made sense within a traditional construct designed to alleviate trauma.